I'm still dying of menstrual cramps, and I'm not taking any more ibuprofen because it gives me stomachaches for hours.
This new eating schedule gets easier and easier each day. "Fasting" is not really an accurate term for it because I'm not going very long between meals; the time between meals is merely long compared to what I'm adapted to. I had some electrolytes today and the pre-first-meal headache disappeared. Eating at 2, 8, and the equivalent of a snack at around 2:30 am is a rather normal meal schedule.
I'm supposed to see the dietician tomorrow and I'm seriously considering cancelling. I don't think I need a dietician, and, if what I'm doing works, I won't even need the endocrinologist. I expect my body to adapt to the point that I stop having symptoms of low blood sugar in between meals. I'm pretty much already there except for the headaches, and, if they turn out to be merely dehydration headaches, then the problem will be solved.
My body looked great when I woke up this morning; I can already see signs of weightloss. I'm no eating very much and I'm not struggling with hunger, so I'll be hitting my weight goal (much sooner than anticipated) as well as a health goal. It would be amazing if the "fasting" fixed my insomnia as well, but I daren't hope for that much.
I think maybe there are some warped forms of "feminism" going around. It's not easy to pinpoint because I just read snippets of it here and there. Once, for example, there was a womon saying that she wanted to lose weight but didn't do it because she's a feminist. But there are no feminist principles against weight-loss. There are principles against mindlessly valuing certain looks simply because they are presented as desirable, and there are principles against self-abuse to achieve certain looks, but there's nothing about simple weight-loss.
Another example is this article about a guy who is attracted to overweight womyn:
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-40838979As I became a man and started to educate myself on issues such as feminism and how the media marginalizes women by portraying a very narrow and very specific standard of beauty (thin, tall, lean), I realised how many men have bought into that lie.
This is relevant to my topic because he's identifying these ideas about body type with feminism. Media certainly influences how womyn are viewed, but saying that it "marginalizes" womyn simply by not showing the non-thin, non-tall, non-lean ones is going too far. I
might say that the actresses and certain other kinds of workers who cannot get jobs in media because of that bias are marginalized, because their livelihood is affected, and employment is a serious issue because everyone needs money to survive. But marginalization is too serious a term for people simply not seeing bodies similar to their own on TV or in fashion magazines. Another thing about these warped feminisms is that some tend to give media way too much power. "Media representation" is overly relied upon as a form of activism. But media is largely simply entertainment, and people shouldn't take it so seriously that it
canaffect change. Moreso than more female video game characters, people need to turn off screens and interact with real life if they're clueless and/or narrow-minded about the diversity of human beings. In the warped feminisms, there's something like an implicit capitulation to the hegemony of the entertainment industry's power.
I think there is a mis-perception that the fat-positive movement is some kind of feminist movement. Well, there is feminism and then there is pseudo-feminism. Pseudo-feminism I can briefly describe as "girl power" shit: mostly slogans and shallow ideas that are primarily meant to make womyn feel better, very little real political analysis, and, most importantly, very little focus on the most serious womyn's issues (misogynistic violence). There's like a trend for anything that is meant to be positive or uplifting for womyn and girls (regardless of whether it involves anything concretely positive) to be labeled "feminist." Feminism is a collection of sociopolitical ideologies and practices in service of those ideologies. Mere self-esteem boosts are not really feminism.
I've complained on this blog before about womyn making everything about their damned feelings, and the fat positive movement seems like a good example. It's primarily about womyn feeling bad about the stigmatization of fatness. There may be a few legitimate points about things like healthcare and the particularly vicious insults directed towards overweight and obese people, but I don't believe that any sort of serious marginalization is the main focus. The main focus is that society doesn't like fatness, even when society is polite and gentle about that dislike. This is obviously not any kind of serious womyn's issue, and that's why fat positivity isn't any kind of feminism. Excessive focus on the female body is absolutely a legitimate issue in feminism, but the promotion of obesity is not.
Adding focus on fat bodies is not. The fact that womyn are seen as little more than walking breasts and vagina is a serious issue. The fact that there are few overweight women in tv and film is not.