Random #314

Aug. 10th, 2025 11:56 pm
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Hunger is nothing. Mind over matter.

Today I cleared a backlog of about one hundred sentence drill flashcards, cards from a deck that lately hasn't been seeing much action because it's the one I studied with the mobile phone.

I'm supposed to stay away from the Taiwan sub-reddit.

Considering how often people suicide globally, it's interesting that suicide isn't considered some sort of natural if not normal instinct (under adverse circumstances) rather than a mental aberration.

Maybe I can get my sister to write me a letter of recommendation. Actually, my sister doesn't really know me at this point.

2025 Beaverton Night Market

Aug. 10th, 2025 07:24 pm
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Frutamania
Frutamania
Beaverton Night Market • Beaverton, Oregon
Saturday, August 9, 2025
Nikon Z8 • NIKKOR Z 85mm f/1.8 S
f/2 @ 85mm • 1/1000s • ISO 1600

In 2023 the Beaverton Night Market was held twice – once in July, and once in August. I’m not sure there was a night market in 2024. Instead, there was a full weekend of the Legendary Makers Market.

This year, the Legendary Makers Market was held on the same weekend as the Oregon Country Fair, so I wasn’t able to go. And, this year, the Beaverton Night Market was only one night.

Some Photos Below This Cut )

Down regulated

Aug. 10th, 2025 08:42 pm
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Lazy weekend. Picked up yarn for a small scarf for the house, and to make a gift scarf for a niece who just started college (in the green of her new school's colors). It's dangerous having a yarn store in walking distance from home.

At the moment I'm listening to the husband wailing in the bedroom as he tortures his poor calves with our massage gun. And I'm quietly giggling at the drama. He went out dancing Friday with friends and is paying the price for jumping around a lot more than he's used to. I suggested the massage gun, which he initially balked at, but he relented so I got him started. I know the feeling - that sucker really does work your calves, and if they're sore, it's quite the change. But he'll feel a hell of a lot better after. I know I always do.

Haircuts and a trip to BJ's warehouse for the morning, then a quiet day at home, mostly catching up on comics for me.

第四年第二百十四天

Aug. 10th, 2025 07:59 pm
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讠 parts 12-15
读, to read; 课, class; 谁, who; 调 to investigate/musical key, to harmonize/to adjust; 谈, to talk; 谊, friendship; 谎, to lie; 谐, harmonious; 谚, proverb; 谜, riddle; 谢, to thank; 谦, modest; 谱, chart/list/sheet music
pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrads=149
口 parts 1-2
口, mouth; 古, old; 句, sentence; 另, another; 只, only; 叫, to call
pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrad=30

语法
的 with adjectives
https://www.chineseboost.com/grammar/de-after-adjectives/
Past tenses
https://www.chineseboost.com/grammar/past-events/
一…就…, “as soon as…”
https://www.chineseboost.com/grammar/yi1-jiu4-as-soon-as/

词汇
信, to believe/to trust/letter; 信封, envelope; 信任, trust; 通信, communication
行李, luggage; 飞行, flight; 旅行社, travel agency; 实行, to implement
形成, formation; 形式, form; 形象, image; 形状, shape
幸福, happiness; 幸运, lucky
性, -ness; 性别, gender; 性格, character; 个性, personality
修, to repair; 修改, to modify
pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

玩玩
I was in a mood for Zhou Shen’s sweet wistful aspect this week, so have 空荡荡 (not exactly sweet where the lyrics are concerned, but it’s Zhou Shen so he sounds like singing it makes him happy anyway) and old favorite 听我说; bonus Stefanie Sun’s 180度.

昨天走了好多,今天不是,也没办法。大家怎么样?别中热啦(南半球朋友们,不要感冒了)!

Cleaning The Apartment

Aug. 9th, 2025 11:21 pm
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I wanted to finally clear my living room of all the boxes and papers, but cleaning the kitchen and bathroom has worn me out, so it may not happen tonight. Tedium must be a large part of the feeling, a large part of the reason why I struggle to keep my living space clean in general, because I can walk for hours yet I feel tired after just forty-five minutes of sweeping, mopping, scrubbing surfaces, and throwing things into the trash. Also I have to think about cleaning but not about walking. Having to scrub the muck left over from meal remnants washed down the sink made me think I should go fully raw vegan. The basic version doesn't generate a lot of mess besides the juices, seeds, and peels of fruit. Plus there's no time spent on cooking. But some of that time is spent on extra trips to the grocery store because produce doesn't last very long.

Like a dumbass, I went out walking without eating enough again and had to come right back to avoid a headache. This is note to self to stop doing that stupid shit. I can get away with it first thing in the morning, but not later in the day. Why?

I want that goddamned doctor so badly. In my mind's eye I keep seeing his hand held out, waiting for me to squeeze it, as he began the physical exam. Knobby knuckles and long, finely shaped fingers. Red at the thumb and pale at the palm, probably from the pressure of all the washing. Bandages on the thumb and another finger. I wonder why his hand was bandaged.

This sucks.

The Second Ukiyo-e Print

Aug. 9th, 2025 05:17 pm
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It was in July 2024 when I purchased my first ukiyo-e woodblock print – of Ultimate Madoka. While I was waiting for production of that artwork, I ended up purchasing a second ukiyo-e print – a re-creation of one of my favorite prints by Hiroshige Utagawa. At Shin Hanga Gallery I was lucky to get a print of Ohahi Bridge and Atake in Sudden Shower. I had purchased from them in the past, and they are a reliable vendor. I placed the order at the end of July 2024 and received the print in perfect condition two weeks later.

I held off on getting the print framed until the framed Madoka print arrived. I wanted to make sure the Hiroshige print frame was compatible with the Madoka print frame. My Madoka arrived near the end of June 2025, and right away I Went to Chrisman Framing to get my Hiroshige print framed. Tony was very helpful.

The job estimate was two weeks – so, mid July. However, the frame I had selected was out of stock, and there was a four week delay for the material to arrive. So the total wait was six weeks. But it was worth it. The framed print is beautiful.

Framed Hiroshige Ukiyo-e Print
Framed Hiroshige Ukiyo-e Print

It’s hard to see, but the frame is a very dark brown. I needed the frame to not clash with the Saia oil pastel frame. The new frame does look too close to black, though.

I’ve temporarily hung the three pictures that will be on the gallery wall in the new library – just so I could get a feel as to how they will look. Because the art is radically different between them, I was a little concerned – but I think things will work out OK.

Gallery Wall Preview
Gallery Wall Preview

第四年第二百十二天

Aug. 9th, 2025 06:20 pm
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口 part 2
另, another; 只, only; 叫, to call pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrad=30

词汇
修, to repair; 修改, to modify (pinyin in tags)
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

Guardian:
你叫我什么, what did you call me?
我又没说要等这山路修好, I didn't say we had to wait for the mountain road to be repaired

Me:
我给你看什么叫天才。
请不要修改机器。
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...or: more fun with chemistry. I have to do something useful with my skills after all! XD So, here's my newest color, "Living Tree".

Living-Tree-2025-08-kl

This time, it's supposed to look like leaves - with a bit of granulation to make botanical painting more convenient. I can already predict I'm going to use this color quite often. Maybe the next project is going to be a sky blue - then I have an (almost) complete landscape set!

Out of the Loop

Aug. 9th, 2025 06:34 am
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Convergence is happening? This weekend?! Now I have many sads. In another time I'd have jumped on a plane this morning. We even have direct summer Denver flights now. But it's kiddo's birthday, her grandfather arrived yesterday for an extended visit, Mom needs her meds and groceries, and husband is stuck covering at his job for an ill colleague. Adulting is some real bullshit sometimes. Ok, most of the time.

EDIT: apparently stuff was organized on Facebook in the last 6 months, with tiny tendrils on Reddit. I won't touch the former, and never think to visit the latter. Not sure if the voting email lists got lost, or they didn't use them, or just didn't vote. I can tell I'm going to be a ray of sunshine today.
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I keep thinking about him. I've had maybe half a dozen imaginary conversations with him.

Oddly enough, I'm having chips now. Regularly, I mean, or at least until I run out of the bag I just bought. My sandwiches don't contain enough calories to form a full meal, so I'm able to fit in a serving. This fattening, unfulfilling junk food is now a part of the diet. One serving is eight chips. I counted out eight chips to make sure I didn't overeat, then I shoved the bag to the back of a cabinet that's annoying and a little difficult to access. Now that I think about it, buying double the bread and having two sandwiches instead of one would probably make more sense. A large bag of chips costs about the same as a pack of rye bread.

I am bingeing Mandarin videos from Odyssey now. I convert them to mp3 and listen during my morning walk. The aural comprehension is coming along, albeit slowly. I can wait. All I need is a calm male voice, decent enunciation, and no goddamned background music or sound effects. The guy whose whole channel seems to be about ukulelees (which is autistic as hell) hasn't uploaded any videos in at least a year or two, so I'm branching out to other vloggers. Today I found some guy who talks about health, and it looks like his channel might give me some practice with all the food-related vocab I've recently learned.

I would like something more peaceful than cardiac arrest. I don't want to die with my heart beating out of my chest. Maybe I could rent a small storage unit and use it to asphyxiate myself. I don't think I could afford enough gas though. Enclosed spaces are difficult to come by. Maybe I could take some of my medication for stomach cramps and then drink some bleach. It might still burn my esophagous too painfully though. But that wouldn't matter too much if I died soon afterward. No, shit. Household bleach is too diluted. The body has a problematic tendency to puke up poisons.

In terms of violent deaths, I think I could handle electrocution. Not sure whether I'd be able to find a large enough voltage source though. Maybe if I climbed an electric tower. I remember hearing warnings on the car radio when I was a kid. "Don't climb electric towers."

第四年第二百十一天

Aug. 8th, 2025 05:39 pm
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口 part 1 kǒu
口, mouth; 古, old; 句, sentence pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrad=30

语法
一…就…, “as soon as…”
https://www.chineseboost.com/grammar/yi1-jiu4-as-soon-as/

词汇
性, -ness; 性别, gender; 性格, character; 个性, personality pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

Guardian:
你能不能把刚才那句话再说一遍, can you say that again?
这个经理一看就不靠谱, you can tell at a glance that this manager isn’t trustworthy
你真的了解它的个性吗, do you really understand its personality?

Me:
他喜欢古代建筑。
她绝对不会那样做,那不适合她的性格。

Свежие новости@

Aug. 8th, 2025 08:16 pm
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(или Давненько я сюда ничего не постил)

Начнём с того, что мы с Машей теперь есть на сайте Изба-читальня. Наткнулись на него случайно, решили опробовать. Сайт немного глючный, но там гораздо больше возможностей чем на Прозе.Ру. Я (вот он я) перетащил туда всё, кроме статей, с Прозы.Ру, а Маша (вот она) – некоторые свои стихи. Словом, расползаемся потихоньку.

Символ «@» в заголовке этого поста – это в знак протеста против предстоящей блокировки мессенджеров в России. По крайней мере, со вчерашнего дня этот символ стал знаком протеста. Если вы против того цифрового концлагеря, в который всё больше превращается Россия – присоединяйтесь.

А теперь – новости краудфандинга. Артур Хусаинов, за велоприключениями которого я в последнее время активно слежу, всё-ж-таки добился своего и доехал на велосипеде до Владивостока и даже чуть дальше (на остров Русский). Сейчас он отдыхает после своего полуторамесячного путешествия и готовится отправиться в обратном направлении (на этот раз – при помощи одного из более традиционных видов транспорта). Под катом – оставшаяся часть его маршрута, начиная с моей предыдущей сводки.

Смотреть сводку (много картинок) )

Проект иллюстраций к венку сонетов Максимилиана Волошина Corona Astralis неожиданно собрал нужную сумму денег (я уже, честно говоря, не надеялся), так что – ждём теперь издания артбука.

More Fiber

Aug. 7th, 2025 11:39 pm
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I took a bottle of water with me for grocery day today. No headache.

This month, I'm trying to focus on eating more whole grains/fiber so that I can feel full with even less food. I'm pleased with the appearance of my body, and I feel that the end of the diet is finally in sight. The issue is that more fiber costs more money. The brown basmati rice I bought today costs twice as much as the white version I'd normally get. Chickpea pasta is at least double the price of the white rice noodles I've been eating. I haven't changed my bread this month, still having rye, but seven sandwiches' worth is almost five dollars. I've added more beans to my menu. The one thing that won't cost me more is switching to steel cut oats, which are the same price as all the other varieties of bulk oats at the health food store.

I'm always struggling to afford enough veggies, and this month is going to be even worse. I'm not really complaining though. I eat like royalty on food stamps and I'm glad the program exists as it does. Having to put back foods that I want month after month, however, is unpleasant. Having to put back foods that I need is worse. But I sprung for a sixteen-dollar bag of fresh walnuts today, similar to what I've been doing these past few months, so I hope that my omega-3 level isn't still low.

Three days of poor sleep and I'm back on the quick-release melatonin.

第四年第二百十天

Aug. 7th, 2025 06:36 pm
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讠 part 15
谜, riddle; 谢, to thank; 谦, modest; 谱, chart/list/sheet music pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrads=149

词汇
幸福, happiness; 幸运, lucky pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

Guardian:
今儿谢了,不打扰了, thank you for today, we won't disturb you any longer
大家都幸福我就幸福了, if everyone is happy I'm happy

Me:
你太离谱了,能不能正常一点。
抵达这里我觉得自己好幸运。

Endocrinology

Aug. 6th, 2025 09:35 pm
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I finally had my endocrinology appointment today. The nurse who checked me in asked me whether it was ok for the doctor to use AI to transcribe his notes. I asked why it wouldn't be ok and she said that I'd be surprised. I guess some patients don't trust AI. But their AI system is offline, in-house, and nothing is processed by a third party, so I have no problem with it.

The doctor was attractive. Slim with long, slim fingers and a skinny mustache. A bit on the tall side but not alien-tall.

One of the things I hate the most about being around (non-autistic?) people is that they pay too much attention to people's faces and body attitudes. I know that they see and use it as a form of communication, but that doesn't work for me, apparently; every time someone comments on how I look, they always come up with something I'm not actually feeling.

After some initial questioning about my blood sugar issues, the doctor asked me whether he'd said anything that had upset me because I looked sad. I didn't really feel sad. I was stressed out from listening, talking, and trying to maintain somewhat normal eye contact. Also I was dehydrated, which causes fatigue; maybe that's part of what he saw. I said that I was ok and the appointment continued.

He said the first step was to figure out the cause, but I don't think we're going to find that. I think the cause was me getting too fat at university and permanently messing up my digestive system somehow. He ordered a glucose monitor and glucose testing kit for me and directed the staff to schedule me for a follow-up appointment in three months. In the meantime, I'm supposed to get a fasting blood test and a four-hours-post-meal blood test. I'm also supposed to see the dietician, which I don't really want to do.

He seemed very thorough. I don't think I've even seen a doctor go through all the forms I've had to fill out for appointments over the years. I was asked my current or previous occupation on one form, and he asked me about my answer. Basically I told him that I'd edited various kinds of STEM-related writing. Then he said that he was really into science, which made me laugh because, it should be a given that a medical doctor is really into science. But he told me that some doctors aren't, and he mentioned some who'd speculated about covid being the work of aliens. Our little chat put me in a good mood.

I made my follow-up appointment and left. I had a headache at that point. All this time I've been thinking that the headaches I get while out of town are due to hunger; now I'm fairly certain that most or all of them are caused by dehydration. I've come to appreciate only gradually over the years how dry the environment is here, and only recently have I noticed that I need to drink more than I'm used to drinking.

I stopped at Whole Foods for something to eat and could scarcely find anything that didn't have added oil. This is a recurring problem with eating away from home. The hot bar at Whole Foods is the oiliest thing ever, and expensive too. I settled on a package of whole wheat lavash and a bit of fresh ground peanut butter. Simple and wholesome. I quickly ate some and then caught the inter-city bus back home and stopped at another grocery store in town for an electrolyte drink. Water is never enough once I'm dehydrated enough to have a headache.

I've been fantasizing about that doctor almost the whole time since that appointment ended.

Not doing normal things with the face and body is one of the major impediments to bonding with non-autistic people. Smiles and eye contact and shit is super important to them. What feels like a neutral face to me looks sad or angry apparently. There's nothing I can do about that except avoid them. No point in wasting my time being misread. They also apparently love to talk in this particular culture. I've reached the point at which I want to get a TTS device so that I can avoid talking. Talking feels physically unpleasant and it's tiring. Smiling doesn't feel good either. I prefer people who don't smile a ton and I bond via touch.

第四年第二百零九天

Aug. 6th, 2025 06:10 pm
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部首
讠 part 14
谎, to lie; 谐, harmonious; 谚, proverb pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrads=149

语法
Past tenses
https://www.chineseboost.com/grammar/past-events/

词汇
形成, formation; 形式, form; 形象, image; 形状, shape pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

Guardian:
王一珂替你复仇,你替她说谎, Wang Yike got revenge on your behalf and you're lying on hers
也许以前真的见过吧, maybe we really have met before
形状大小都和之前现场留下的一样, the shape and size are all the same as the ones left at the site before

Me:
成语算说中文的谚语。
雪片有很美的形成。

A Grieving Process

Aug. 5th, 2025 11:38 pm
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I can no longer log in to the vegan dating site. Like seemingly everything online nowadays, it's primarily an app and the web version was apparently something of an afterthought or perhaps just a low priority. It's been in beta ever since I started using it, and this new beta version won't load any login form for me, so, there's another dating avenue closed. It wasn't a very promising one anyhow. As much as I would love love love to have a vegan partner, a relationship with a non-autistic vegan would never work out, would never even get off the ground.

My feet are killing me; I spent too much time standing today or I'm over-exercising again perhaps. So no walk tonight; I ate just half a meal, so the calories not eaten will make up for the calories not burned.

I had a little grieving session yesterday morning (in between waking up and getting up is prime thinking time). I grieved the opportunity of bonding intimately with a member of my own sex. Whether I get a male partner or not, it's a significant loss. It's not definitely lost, for all the rest of my life. Just very likely lost. No more shared experience of femalehood, no more soft bodies to cuddle, no more slippery clits rolling around on my tongue. I'd rather have a female partner; it'd just be easier. I never had to worry about pregnancy, squirting organs, and violence when I dated womyn.

I had an interesting dream this morning, so I'm annoyed that I cannot remember it. Either someone kissed me or said something super interesting to me.

It's so nice to sit outdoors and read, think, and daydream without anyone saying a damned thing to me. Haven't heard a peep out of the property manager since I emailed him to ignore me from then on.

Tsundoku ja nai #7

Aug. 5th, 2025 08:11 pm
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New Manga, August 2025
New Manga, August 2025

Another installment of the too good for a layover in the tsundoku stack saga. Previously: Tsundoku ja nai #6.

The Story of Four Volumes, Below This Cut )

第四年第二百零八天

Aug. 5th, 2025 06:27 pm
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讠 part 13
调 to investigate/musical key, to harmonize/to adjust; 谈, to talk; 谊, friendship pinyin )
https://www.mdbg.net/chinese/dictionary?cdqrads=149

词汇
行李, luggage; 飞行, flight; 旅行社, travel agency; 实行, to implement pinyin )
https://mandarinbean.com/new-hsk-3-word-list/

Guardian:
全龙城的人民我们特调处替你守护, our Special Investigation Division protects all the people of Dragon City on your behalf
🎵跨越时间一起飞行, 🎵flying across time together

Me:
你不要把调高一个,我的声音够不着。
我的天,行李不见了!
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My newest watercolor-making experiment! Producing this stuff at home is a lot of work, but hey, it gets me some colors not commercially available, so... XD

Living-Earth-watercolor

I wanted a supergranulating multi-pigment color that unmixes when you use it very wet, and I think it worked just fine! On rough (Torchon) paper, it creates these interesting effects. I think I'm going to use it a lot in landscape sketches!

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